Choose

My mind is running 500MPH in a dozen different directions. The past week, I have been quite productive. It appears I have a bit more energy, something it seems I never have enough of. Perhaps it's due to the weather warming up or because I'm slowly weaning myself off of my Gabapentin because I felt that God was telling me to wean off of it. Does that seem odd? It's pretty normal for me. Anyway, whatever the reason behind this sudden excess of energy, I've learned to take it and run with it because it always comes to an end at some point, unfortunately. Maybe I'm just super pumped about starting my program at the American College of Healthcare Sciences to become a Clinical Herbalist. In the past week, I've read at least two books, plus my daily Bible reading, completed my five-module orientation class required to begin my first class on May 5th, installed the necessary software for school, and even went out a couple of times. Of course, I'm constantly reading anyway - it's my muse. I'm reading through my Bible in a year, and I am honestly enjoying it so much. I am always thinking, pondering the deep questions of life. I suppose that happens when you can't move. My mind runs away like a hamster on that never-ending wheel. Sometimes, the most random thoughts enter my mind, and away I go. Reading, researching, writing, sharing. It's what I do.

I've been thinking about beliefs lately. I went to see King of Kings in the theater earlier last week. Animated or not, it was one of the best movies I've seen. I just finished reading through 2 Kings, and it's actually a sad book in my opinion; it's all about these kings that come into power and (most of them) turn their backs to God, instead worshipping idols and even practicing witchcraft. Yet, when God removed His hand of protection from them and they experienced the hardships of life, they turned back to God real quick, but soon enough, they repeated the same cycle all over again. Sound familiar? "I'm a Christian, but only when it's convenient for me.""I'm a Christian, but I am pro-choice.""I am a Christian, but I..." Fill in the blank. I'm a Christian, and I believe God can heal me if that is His will. Do I live that out, though? The truth is, I always shy away from the topic of supernatural healing. It's a difficult aspect of the Christian life for someone like me. The truth is, I know God can heal me, I just believe He's using me the way I am better than if I were healthy, normal, whatever you want to call it. Just because God is limitless and can do ANYTHING doesn't mean He will. And you know what? That is OK. Because I would rather live a thousand lifetimes in this broken body that doesn't work then to walk one day without Jesus.

So, which will you choose? Either Jesus Christ is the King of Kings and Lord of Lords, or He's nothing. Either He is the Messiah who healed the blind and lame, or He was just a good storyteller. Either He is the Son of God who paid the ultimate sacrifice for our sins, or life is meaningless. Either we stand up and fall in line with everything He told us is right or wrong, or we continue to be hypocrites who are trying to barely get to Heaven someday without giving God our very best. Pick a side, there is no in between. Choose this day whom you will serve (Joshua 24:15).